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Being a Male Prostitute after Dumped !!

आज ४ बर्षभन्दा ज्यादा भैसकेछ सुजुका यादरुपी जहरले मेरो मष्तिस्क रेटेको। भन्नुमात्र रेट्नु हो – आफैं रेटिदै छु। हटाउन खोज्यो – पौराणिक कालको कालीको कथा पून: दोहोरिएको आभाष पाउँछु। जति काट्यो त्यति नै बढ्दै जान्थे रे – सानोमा सुनेको ती दैत्यहरु। सुजुका यादहरु नि जति दबाउन खोज्यो जति मेटाउन खोज्यो – त्यति नै झ्याँन्गिदै आइरहेका छन्। लाग्छ – यिनै झ्याँगिएका यादहरुको पासोमा आफुलाई पाउनेछु कुनै एक दिन। त्यो दिन जमिन आफ्नो हुनेछैन, आकाशसम्म पुग्ने सामर्थ्य हुनेछैन – बस लट्किने छु र अनि मात्र अन्त्य हुनेछ ति यादहरुको नि देहसँगै। हो – त्यहि दिनको पर्खाइमा छु, खाँचो छ त मात्र विवेकशुन्य शुन्यताको ताकी त्यो कदम सजिलै लिनसकियोस।

यो स्वास्नीमान्छेको यै नहुने। वक्षस्थल मात्र अग्ला हुन् – मन त सारै गहिरो कुवाजस्तो। त्यो गहिरो मनमा धेरै कुरा लुकाउछन्। हामी चाहीं त्यहि कुवामा झाँकी हेर्दा आफ्नै प्रतिबिम्ब देखी मख्ख परिदिन्छौ। छि! सुजुका आँखामा आफ्नै प्रतिबिम्ब देख्ने म….. ति आँखामा लुकेका ठुला महत्वाकांक्षा अनि कुल्चिइदै गरेको मेरो मायाको छनक सम्म किन पाइन ? एउटा आँखामा सुजु राखी अर्को आँखामा रहेको भविष्य, करियर सबै तितान्जली दिइ आफैंलाई कानो बनाए। फलत: सुजुले छोडेपछि पूर्णत अन्धो भएको छु – न सुजु छ न भविष्य नै – अहिले यी आँखामा।

यसरी कहिलेसम्म चल्ला र ? केहि न केहि त गर्नैपर्छ। केहि गर्ने नै हो भने – स्वास्नीमान्छेलाई घृणा गर्न सिक। मेरो मन बाठो भई टोपलियो।

तर कसरी ? किन ? मनसामु प्रश्नका हुरी आए।

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Economics says that there are three kinds of money trafficing-Investment, Expenditure and Wastage. The transformation of money from one hand to another occupies either of these three verbs:- invest, spend or waste.

To do invest means just to think profit mainly. Money attracts money rule is used here to get collection.

To do spend means just exchange of goods or something with money. Buy and sell or give and take rule is used here.

To waste means just to throw of money.

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We use to login different community website to get connected with our friends and to make new friends too. Facebook, Orkut, Hi5, Myspace etc. community websites attracts much more users by providing various services like giving high MB,GB spaces to upload one’s images, letting one to look other’s profile to know about them. Using these websites one can share his feeling, ideas etc. through the use of notebook, wall, testimonials, scrap etc.

A mini research(my own) shows that community websites are nowadays not only be used as above. In sex traffic it is being used as a road, a highway not only to transport one’s nude pictures and words but also to fix a time for meeting. Orkut is in ahead in this case. In Brazil and India, this website is getting overrated performance. Those who seek sex partner are using this site maximally, some showing censored while some with uncensored pictures.

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We use to be covered by faces by anytime, anywhere and in any condition. Faces of friends, relatives, known as well as unknowns etc. do not let us to feel alone. But indeed, each and every time one is always alone, even in the crowd one is alone. Reality Bites. Friends, relatives all these walk with us while loneliness is within us.

Whenever a person feel something good, he first leaves soft smile, do even a little bit but do conversation with himself. Like saying ‘yea’, ‘I got it’ etc. he first express his feeling to himself. This symbolizes that unknowingly he is making loneliness as his friend because there is no one to walk with him in his whole life. He has to hold his own hand, no one from the crowd is there to do that.

Men in alone condition can watch things more properly and more differently as they get enough time to think and see things in different manner.

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