Struggling. We all do struggling in various means. To get a better life, we do fight with poverty, lazyness, illetracy and with enemies. This article says about a girl, Tanishq, doing struggle with herself to obtain a life where sex will be in her control.
‘Stop starring me. I am a lesbian.’ with soft and silence smile she said. In American Library, situated in Biratnagar(Nepal), I saw a girl so beautiful that I couldn’t stop myself gazzing at her.
‘Oh, sorry.’ with a little bit shy and strangeness I apoloziged to her.
‘Don’t be. By the way, I am Tanishq, student.’
‘I am Amit, a blogger.’
The librarian didn’t allow us to do more conversation. Inspite of giving concentration to book, I was thinking ‘ Is she making fool to me ? ‘ But her expression of face and way of spreading words were whisperring me to trust her. ‘Do respect it.’
‘How does it feel to live a different life ?’geting out from library the blogger inside me force me to ask this.
‘This is not a different life, this is also a part of life.’ She corrects me ‘Sex is a part of life and this life within the teritory of sex.’ Then, a silence environment from my side thinking how to move ahead with a lady asking questions in sex ???
‘If you are feeling shy or odd, then be confident. You can ask anything that you want to know.’ Inspite of her this saying, my mind wasn’t being able to catch even a question.
‘Whenever I see a nice girl, my stomach feels something and it bound me to feel attraction toward her. I really hate this.’ She started the conversation hinting me not to feel nervouseness with her.
‘I didn’t get the actual mean of this’ I .
‘I don’t hate lesbianness rather the trap of it. The trap of it is so strong that I feel myself sometimes as a slave of sex. I sometimes do sacrifice my dignity just only to get a bed with one, and I just hate this.’
‘Then, are you struggling to get rid from lesbian life ?’
‘Yes, but not getting rid from lesbo life, rather controlling the sex life.’
‘What do you do for that, then ?
‘Yoga and my 3 step rule,for now.’
‘Can i know your rules ?’
‘Sorry, You can’t.’
Gay, Lesbians, Bisexuals are not from another world. These all are human, though getting low percentage of humanism just only because of our different attitute to see them as a different and abnormal. During this conversation, I realized that in actual mean our struggling is far below in comparision to them.
Why did she choose me ? This question may seem irrevalent but this question must be raised here because people usually don’t share their personnel feeling with even best friends, she did it with me(an unknown), a person about who she doesn’t know anything except name and blog site address.
Life is tuff and full of struggle. God is so rude. In the name of struggling, god bounded her to do struggle to get her basic need, a life with normal sex behaviour is her own basic right.
This article do a salute to all those who are doing struggle with themselves to live a normal life that is their own basic and human right.